Sometimes I think too much just for the sake of thinking. women, despite their social status or wealth mostly want the same thing: Love, beauty and recognition. The secret desires inside women's hearts drive them to do a lot of different thing, however, no matter what the expressions are, they are all for the same cause.
That we shall call, the mundaneness of life.
I have wanted all of these.
I wanted love, in the simplest and puriest form, just to love a man and make him happy. However, problems always arise. It always started with the love of my ideal and ended in either the interference of our greedy emotions or the desire of worldly things. Now I simply conclude that true love does not exist.
I wanted beauty and tried all forms, from sexy to cute to classy. later I found out that beauty is not only skin deep but also impossible to fake by makeups and chothings. The aura of the person says it all. It comes from within oneself and shows in her face, her walk and talk.
I wanted recognition, by the ones I love and by people in general. It turned out that the harder I chased, the further away it is from me.
Therefore now I start to think that the lack of desire in Buddism make the most sense. Not wanting anything is the only way to relieve us from the trap of emotions, worldly desires and the mundaneness of our long boring life.
